Wonder

We at the LBTEPA theatre company hereby declare the monster dance concert week over, and a huge success! We were so proud of Noddie, dancing so well and having such a good time even when she was so very tired by the end. This afternoon the two of us are decorating the tree and the house in a lazy let's have another break shall we? sort of way. So pleasant.
I'm really looking forward to Christmas, are you? The LBTEPA copyright and legal department has registered the word "massive' to describe this past spring - marathon, surgery, exams, Noddie's birthday, the election and of course the great tapdance extravanganza of 2010 - so it's very pleasing to have ticked off the last Big Thing and settle into Christmas mode at last.
It's go big or go home at Chateau LBTEPA, as you know. Our mottos for December are if it doesn't move, put tinsel on it, and if you can see any green on the tree you haven't finished. Summer's coming too, that wonderful time when you see old men from church down the street in shorts and think how weird it is to see their knees. Christmas presents, the Christmas letter... I love it all.
Let me share one of my favourite songs with you.

So LBTEPA, you ask, how's the project going? It's interesting (to me at least!), although I'm tending to rush my answers a bit and not craft my prose as carefully as I would normally do. Possibly a symptom of reluctance to engage in a challenging activity? Or could I be manifesting my cranky anglo-saxon protestant sceptic by accident? We shall see....
Prompt 4: Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?
This is something I have been lucky enough to do all my life. I say lucky becuase my dear Mum always told us happiness is the sum of small joys. Because of this, I've been deliberate about looking for small, joyous, wonderful things, like the first plum blossoms of the spring or how the earliest sunshine transforms the spiderwebs in the grass stalks into a bed of sparkling dew-flowers. Thanks Mum!
Prompt 5: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
I let go of the illusions of pride and strength. I can't do "anything". I can't do "everything" either. Why? I had to! Reality smacked me until I did! It's ok, though - although I sometimes miss being bullet-proof hahahaha, I find its departure has left me much more room to really be me. Sad, small, stuck, hilarious, amazing, fabulous me.

Ooooh I must just quickly mention that on Tuesday I am showing up to the scary tri club full of scary skinnyfasts for their weekly mini-tri. 6kg extra and all, I'm going for it. Go me, eh? I'll let you know how it goes.
More anon, resumers of regular programming!